Return of the Binge

Oh Shit! did I mess up this weekend.
I hate to say it, but I think I just over thought the impending weekend and all of the temptations until it was ALL I could think about. 
Here are all of the things I cheated on and messed up:
1. Cake, cake, and more cake (I'm talking thick icing with creme in the middle)
2. Cheese Puffs (really!?!- I don't even like these!)
3. Beer
4. Wine
5. B-52 shots
6. Chick-fil-a freaking nuggets- a million of them. (damn party tray)
7. Cinnamon Pound Crumb Cake (seriously, who buys these things!)
8. Spinach Dip
9. French Onion Dip
10. M&M's

Looking over this list makes me almost want to vomit!  I worked so hard for 3 weeks and was feeling so great about myself, and then I binged over a celebratory weekend with family and friends (my dad's 60th birthday party).  At first I told myself it was my cheat day and that I deserved a little splurge.  But this quickly turned into a splurge weekend.  It is so true that you crave what you eat.  It was so hard to get back on track today. I know that I can not change any of my choices or correct them quickly, and am ready to face the consequences on the scale on Thursday.  I am happy that I have not given up on my goals, but I am still disappointed in myself.  This weekend just brings up past yo-yo dieting memories and the emotional effect it has had in my past.  It makes me want to avoid parties and social gatherings centered on food, which is SO hard to do.  I wish I had more will power! 
Well, back to focusing on tomorrow instead of yesterday.