Shit. Damn.
I pretty much have continued my horrible eating since last weekend. On my Thursday weigh-in I was up to 250.4, which is a gain of 2.6 pounds. Eeek. I thought that having a bad weigh-in on Thursday would whip my butt into shape, but instead I met my hubby at Moe's and ate mucho queso. Bad Bad Bad.
Then tonight I had wine and pizza (totally against all of my rules). I keep thinking in the back of my head that I will start fresh tomorrow and I keep telling myself that I *deserve* to cheat. WRONG. I really do not know how to get past this mentality! I named this blog "my last fat meal" because this is what I do when I start ANY diet. I do good for a few weeks, start feeling really good about myself, and then blow it with cheating and fat meals that add up very quickly.
I keep reminding myself that every day is an opportunity to make good choices, and then I get so weak when that fast food or bad food is nearby. I will be so upset if I gain 2 weeks in a row. I know that I need to commit to making this weekend really count towards my goal, and I really hope that I can stay strong and get back on track. I am about to start working in 1 week, and if I can't make this diet work now, how will I ever be able to then!?!
I miss the way I felt last week when the scale showed the 240's. I hope that is motivation for me this week.
Don't give up, girl- you have come SO freaking far and you just went through and are still adjusting to a major transition. Give yourself a break. I'll email ya... xoxo
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